Haven’t recorded thinking for a long time.
Although Taofig has been urging me to record before my thoughts fade away,
I always have a feeling:
recent life density isn’t very big.
Tonight as usual got off work and went home as a corporate slave,
Mia had already finished her dailies and was getting ready to sleep.
Listening to her on-and-off humming the melody of some song I didn’t know in her headphones,
the thought of “haven’t gone singing in a long time” suddenly swam through my mind.
“Sigh, lately I’m feeling life is so empty again.”
When I entered the corridor elevator at night,
two female mosquitoes followed.
They circled my arms exposed outside the short sleeves several times,
relying on high agility,
dodged several of my swats.
So I crossed my hands,
pretending to ponder life in the elevator,
taking advantage of the mosquitoes being stunned by my calm,
zoom, dashed out of the stopped elevator.
Modern people really fall into collective emotion too easily,
and individual lament appears too powerless.
Mia last week got a treasure of a show 《Summer of the Band》,
the aftershock of dozens of bands’ live performances combined,
matches the aftershock of 《Bohemian Rhapsody》.
She suddenly asked me last night:
“As an old user of AcFun,
do you have those niche hobbies you liked for a long time,
that later suddenly got popular and felt frustrating?”
Before the first denial force of “I’m not me you’ve got the wrong person don’t talk nonsense” took effect,
a hundred words flashed through my mind.
“Yes, quite a few.”
I answered this way nonetheless.
Before Mia’s next question came out,
I also gave her the answer in advance:
“Yes, afterward I stopped liking it.”
What I feel a bit powerless about with work lately is,
I truly felt the existence of “tech isn’t the bottleneck” in work,
quite a few coworkers also sought higher prospects because of this.
Although metabolism is necessary component for organizations to stay vital,
the phrase “life is big the world is bigger” is also a bit weary from repetition.